Don't worry about that, no harm was caused, the matter was settled and we can now move on
If you say the matter is settled then I'll take your word for it. Just be aware I'm not stable right now. I feel attacked and partially defenseless needing to protect myself right now. I'm sorry that I put you through this, it's however how the world is influencing me right now. You are your surroundings.......
I just feel like I can't speak my mind anymore. On Twitter I have people just bailing on me, or people believing whatever the media says. I just can't be friends with certain people anymore thanks to the media, politics, and crap. I want to have a more of an even ground again where people can be honest and naturally proud of what they enjoy instead of fearing how the current world climate would snub them. Nobody wants to boast about what they enjoy, praise it, share it in the way the Japanese hobbiests (Otakus) do. They're far more loving and passionate than any other group I've seen. I'm so upset with the media turning friends and social influencers against me and others to the point we get these threads, outbursts, and etc. It's why I'm a person who likes Anime sharing it proudly, even then, I struggle. It's that fine tight-rope getting trickier to walk on as the years go by. Nobody wants to be proud of their hobbies like the Japanese were.
I just lost a cool anime buddy probably over this Freedom Convoy because I finally tasted freedom again. This Tyjo's guy had a severe depression issue which probably finally snapped on him forcing him to block me without opening up a dialogue to tell me why. But with how the media trumpeted fake news I now have to deal with burnt social bridges, alienation, and other nonsense. This is the only social bridge I wanted repaired, and the same for you, Red51. Even if I may have lurked from the shadows for those few months, or however long it would have taken.
(Thank you government of Canada, they screwed everything up even here. I may have posted, they caused this to happen. Cause & effect. If they simply opened up dialogue to the truckers we could have had a more peaceful resolution on both spectrums. Just look at Alberta and the Ambassador Bridge dialogue.)
I was in shock because the trashing simply came out of nowhere hitting me hard when I was already in a very low mood. Even at work today at my retail customers behaved like primitive beasts to the point I threw some stuff around, ("Really?!") when things are misplaced, or when customers are all grabby-grabby not giving you time or space to put stuff up. That, mixed with what's happening in Canada, and everything..... Everything all at once. I'm losing my sanity. Canadians aren't intelligent as they used to be causing me to snap the way you saw it. My friend in Vancouver is in far more pain, though in a better situation allowing him to mentally recover having a significant other to rely on. Others simply suicide, hence why the truckers are protesting. Why I shared it for awareness (not for army recruiting).
I'm still in a bit of shock right now seeing bridges burnt. I'm trying to process it, accepting what's happening then moving on.
Please don't say that, you know this isn't true
I'll take your word for it seeing as how you're one of the few developers actually wanting to mend our misunderstanding and differences. I'm in a bit of a shock right now, sorry.
I have never really been mad at you in the past, and if you ever had that feeling in the past, I'm sorry for that, but it's certainly a misunderstanding then.
I guess we'll keep it at that. Seeing as how we're trying to mend the situation I'll accept this and move on. With how I responded I wanted to shy away feeling as if I can't request anymore. Any other developer would have moderated me, banned me, and threw me on the street. I over-reacted at the shock of IRL & gaming side of things while just being overloaded with frustration.
There was that bit back in 2015 with the manhole cover. I may have been ignorant, I tried to keep things contained ever since then. GEMA, and such. The locked negative review thread over on Steam. I guess you're right, it's just it hits weirdly. I've just been taught to be more honest with myself even if I'm ironically the shiest person. People tend to be shyer than me not doing as much as I do which is weird.
Just know that going forward I'll always be ticked off with my fellow Canadians for squandering a chance to finally be free instead seeing them urinating on the truckers who provide for them. My friend in Vancouver is just as pissed off as I am (as my parents would be), and my friend in America wanting to finally get out of this stupid covid. I wasn't expecting an Army to be raised, only awareness. The media lies to the point influential Youtubers and such are now spewing lies and hatred against our truckers who keep us comfy at home. Who provided you your furniture? Food? Keyboard, among others? Truckers, or close enough.
I want to move out of Canada. I want to go to some other country that actually has common sense, respects their work force, and doesn't bend over just because someone says so. It's going to be hard finding that place, even harder to move there. I'm at the point where I can see why people suicide (as noted in this Freedom convoy) with how Covid shoved them into a corner. I'm slowly finding my way there also, I however won't seek medical help with how screwed up everything is. I'm fucked because my system is fucked.
I apologize for the curse words, I'm just as fed up as those protesting, as my friends are, and everything. Hopefully this explains where I stand and where my anger, frustration, and shock came from. I haven't been in proper composure on Twitter either. I'm too wound up. People also won't converse with me on a level field. Most are quiet, others aren't in tune with my frequency.
You are still welcome here (it would be crazy to ban someone just for a few posts), and it would be a pity if you now decide to stay away from RW. So let's just forget about this matter. I can delete this topic if you want.
Again, thank you. You're probably the only one (or rare few) who actually went out of their way to welcome me and keep me in their community. Other developers apparently don't give a crap. I'm too much of a random for them. Petroglyph Games were neutral with me then they just let me go. They had enough of me back in my more naive days back in 2006 when I was harassed and bullied from both community & developer side. Steam forums I'd get banned for the fun of it, they hated my feedback.
I'd say give this thread 1 more day to live to wrap things up then lock, delete. Etc. It would indeed be a shame to stay away from Rising World. Going back to freedom was so close, yet now so far. I'm now villainized as I was back in 2017 just because I sided with Truckers in 2022. Various anime folks parted ways with me back in 2017 which then had me join the VRChat community in later half of 2017. I haven't seen those bloggers & hobbiests since. All I wish is for people to be honest with themselves as if they were drinking beer in a traditional European (or Mexican) setting just casually conversing instead of covertly burning bridges without saying why. Sorry, I just have too much frustration I can't keep my posts short right now.
Red51, you're smarter than Trudeau and Watson. You opened up dialogue, you allowed me to mend the issue, now we can move on. This is what the Canadian politicians should have had done. Nope! I had to post crap in frustration to where we are now. Look at how easy it is to mend the situation, something the government can't do.
I'm just a villain to certain people though.
(I probably shouldn't have been friends with them in the first place)
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Until this Canadian Freedom Convoy is done I'm going to be under its influence, just to warn you. Feel free to time me out if I have another stress-filled outburst. Either I have a body failure from the stress or we can finally move on with the Canadian government finally doing the right thing to end this. Too much alienation in this day and age annoying not just me, those in my social group and those who had posters of those who perished during the pandemic through other means.